Can't ... breathe ...
If I could just go back to saying life were stressful I'd be really thankful. I never would have believed I could ever get this stressed out. I haven't really been feeling like much of the angst is within my control. A lot of it is work stress. Most of it, in fact. "Any day I manage to get through without bursting into tears at some point" is my new definition of success.
Some of it comes from a really unnecessary attraction I've been uncharacteristically been trying cloke in the disguise of inevitablity. This I chalk up to the effects of stress and the desire for escapism in an organism with a way too high granola consumption and an over-fondness for Birkenstocks.
But today, riding home on an El train that was more packed than I've seen for awhile, I had a revelation. "I need to stop living my life as if it were an emergency." I guess this is tantamount to Lauren's, "It's not brain Cancer" mantra.
What, outside of keeping a regular workout schedule and red wine stops the constant alarm bells?
Job interview on Thursday. Maybe this will do the trick.
posted by Michelle @ 9:22 PM
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3 Comments:
Good luck on the interview. I'm sorry you've been having such a hard time of it at your job. I have been there and I know how you feel. Hang in there. Pets are very good stress relievers; I recommend them. If you can't get a cat or a dog, try some fishies. It sounds stupid, but having something to take care of really helps. Helps more if they purr or wag their tail, of course, but fishies can be very calming too, the way they swim around all peaceful and serene.
That's terrible honey! I am sorry you are feeling so trapped. I think everyone hits a spot like that in their lives (at least once, if not more) but I feel it's worst when it builds gradually into a crecendo of awfulness.
I totally agree on the pet bit. Getting my cat to NL was a bitch but it has been totally worth it. Not in obvious ways, but the little things add up. Having someone to vent to also helps a ton.
The best solution is, of course, getting the hell out of the bad situation. I will keep my fingers crossed for you on Thursday, which means you get an extra 5-6 hours of luck thanks to the time difference. :)
and huybjs on your old shitty job!
Breeeeeathe, Breeeeeeeathe
This shall pass, Dishy One. Sometimes it helps me to just get to a quiet part of the house or office and sit uninterrupted for a little while. Lunch hour is a good time for this.
And of course, coming to Thursday chat will help immensely.
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